I can’t seem to wrap my mind around the events of today. My heart is heavy. My shoulders weary. My eyes filled with tears at random moments.
Never in a million years do you think something like losing a child could happen to you or anyone you know. & then it does.
I looked at my own children today and thanked God for their health & happiness. At any moment of their births this could have happened to us but somehow we lucked out and the short straw was left to be picked by someone else. By my friend.
I sat thinking when I got to work that there is a nursery waiting at home with pink & brown galore and the teeniest & sweetest of outfits freshly washed and hanging in the closet. There’s random baby stuff laying around, I imagine, in anticipation of that little bundle that was to be swaddled and snoozing away in a swing in the weeks to come. There was a ‘Big Brother’ shirt made with love to be worn when the two siblings met for the first time. And while all that still sits waiting everything else around it is changed.
I ache for my friend Julie and her husband as they try to pick up the pieces that are now shattered, hold them together with great courage & strength, as they prepare to move forward from this moment. A moment that will never leave them. A daughter that will always be theirs, even if she only lived such a short time on this Earth. A beautiful angel watching over them as they continue on, if not for anyone else, but their son, Cameron.
I went for a walk tonight to clear my mind and had to take a picture to remember this evening. The quiet that surrounded me. The cool weather from the rain that poured down today (a sign to me that angels were crying at the arrival of their newest and most precious of angels in Heaven) felt refreshing. The darkness overpowering the light and the tiny moon just barely peeking through the clouds. I’m honestly at a loss right now.
{I will be taking a hiatus from the blog for the time being. There are a few post I have scheduled and although I wont be posting I’m sure I’ll be doing some writing (it is my outlet). My friends and I are looking into going to TN to be with Julie & her family once arrangements are made, so it’s going to be pretty hectic. Please continue to pray for the Ross Family.}

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7 Responses to

  1. Andrea says:

    Your friend and her family are in my thoughts and prayers! There are no words. So very unfair!

    Take care Heather! I will be thinking about you! You are a good friend!

  2. Kristi H says:

    So sorry, Heather! I read your first post on my phone this morning and my heart has also been aching for you and that family. Praying…

  3. Making It Work Mom says:

    My heart is breaking for your friend and her family. I can not even imagine the sorrow.
    I know you will be strong for her.

  4. Jayme says:

    Losing a baby is so hard- your friend Julie is so lucky to have you. I know when our babies died, just knowing I had a friend I could rely on meant the world to me.

    I have lots of helpful resources I'd be happy to share if and when she's ready.

  5. Karen says:

    I am so sorry. Your friend and her family, and you and everyone else effected by this loss are in my thoughts and prayers.

  6. kelsey says:

    I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine the loss of a child — there are just no words. I will certainly pray for your friends and their family.

  7. Brittany says:

    So very sad to hear this – I will be praying for your friend and everyone else touched by this tragedy.
    "He will swallow up death in victory; and the Lord GOD will wipe away tears from off all faces, and the rebuke of His people shall He take away from off all the earth; for the LORD hath spoken it." (Isaiah 25:8)

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