Doing my best, nothing more, nothing less.

I had a workshop at school this week that left me feeling inspired & a total failure all in one.

I tweeted the above sentence the other night as way to get the feeling off my chest & luckily found I’m not the only teacher (who is also a mother) that feels this way.

In the beginning (pre-kids) making teaching my number one priority, was easy. I’d go in early & stay late. I’d bring papers home to grade & lessons to make (and actually do them) and spend hard earned money on new things for my classroom.

Then kids came a long & lots of that all of that changed.Pinned Image

I try to go in early but two days a week it’s impossible when I have to take Tucker to school on Tuesdays & Thursdays. I never stay late unless its for a required Open House or other special event. With mom watching the kids, I know she’s done by four o’clock when I get off (if not sooner) so I try to leave at four on-the-dot.

I still bring things home occasionally (usually just papers to grade) but whatever I bring home usually sits in whatever bag or basket it was brought in without ever being touched.

& spend money on things for my class? Not likely. Now, six years into teaching, I bring home lots less each paycheck because of these kids of mine. Insurance is a killer.

The workshop I mentioned left me inspired because there were so many great things I saw that I want to implement in my own classroom. But at the same time, it left me feeling so inferior with the little I seem to be doing. It’s as if I do just enough to get by.

& that’s not enough anymore.

This week I tried to use my planning times at school more intentionally. I strived at using every second to it’s fullest potential. I brought home papers to grade & actually graded them. This weekend I lugged home a bucket of things to do & have been working little-by-little on said bucket.

& while I think these things are a step in the right direction, I know there will still be times when I put my family first, but that is okay. My kids will only be this little for so long. I figure, if anything, I can be a “good” teacher again when my kids are older.

Until then, this is me trying my best.

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2 Responses to Doing my best, nothing more, nothing less.

  1. Marcie says:

    I know exactly how you feel!! Coming back to work, I have so many things I want/need to accomplish, but come 330 I’m on my way out the door. I, like you, have been trying to make the most of each minute I’m there. It doesn’t help that we face so many challenges with these students. You are a good teacher Heather. The fact that you took the time to write this blog because you are thinking about it proves it.

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